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Tuesday, July 18, 2006

[['chim' thoughts.]]

i've just got to thinking that it's in man's nature to sin. take a child for instance, no one taught him to throw tantrums, or grow up into a rebellious teen. but he does. which means that it really isn't that surprising when people (even the best and most righteous of people) disappoint you, and just are not there when you need, or even want someone around. so why is it that i linger on with the hope that people aren't really as bad as they seem? that the indifference is not due to lack of caring, just lack of expression? because the only reliable thing in life is God. He doesn't change for no apparent reason, He listens. without judgment. so why do we seek approval, encouragement from mere man?

but then i realise that we ARE given a choice. a choice to choose what's good. not only for ourselves but for those around us as well. and so i hope. that people will surprise me in a positive way. and give me reason to trust. that when it comes to the critical moments, those i expect to understand will be there. because there is good in people. it just needs to be practised.

okay, the above is rather sombre i know, but it did come to mind, and putting it to words just made me feel more at ease. and helps me to cope when things don't go right. because when it's rationalized like that, it's no longer an emotion, it's a puzzle. with a solution. which means i can dismiss it more easily. which makes me NOT AFFECTED . yays.

tomorrow i get to be thrown. yes, thrown. cheer practice. kinda. suddenly i'm tired of chim stuff. it'l be so much easier not to think and accept anything that comes. but man are curious creatures. which explains it. i don't really make sense. time to stop. haha. ciaos.

[[*muaks*]]*|10:34 PM|

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[[*The Writer*]]

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rachel tan yun xin (yun, yunnie, yunner, yunnyboo?)
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